To Miss Sylvia Rivera --
I loved you because you were a woman who loved me as her own brother.
The only fear that I retain from the time we shared together, is that somehow you will have been the angry woman of dreams that I wished to expunge in myself by hating you for it.
I guess the fear is valid.
You were the person that gave me the love that I needed.
I will always remember you.
I want you to know that you will always be the most gentle, caring and loving person that I ever knew. Even that is not sufficient.You were the emotional womb that taught me that the only place for me was to be your Julia.
I will never be able to give you the happiness that I found with you.
I hope you are in the most gentle and kind of hands and that you will always remember that I want you to be my friend now and forever.
I know that none of this conforms to the etiquette of relaitonships among women, men or even the divine beings of the earth/universe, but I love you.
You will be the mother of all, for all and the one that will be the rose of my life.
I am crying and crying those - Tears of Estoril
Let me be the rose of your love for me.
Always and forever yours,
Julia, your love
(I miss you)